Week 35, Day 5.
This journey into motherhood cannot be explained or described in words. What I can say about my experience thus far is that it has been a complete love affair with my seed growing within me and the most adventurous, unpredictable, emotional time with my mind and body as I continue to watch it transform into a container of growth. It has transcended the cocoon and depth of connection I have for my husband, redefined the way I love my family and has transported me into a space and time that is raw, unfamiliar and incredibly liberating.
It has sharpened the way my eyes meet other human beings. It has reconfirmed the magnitude of my importance, my work and the holiness and sacredness of the world and the wonder that is. It has led me to here where I will pause, let go, let in and be.
In 3 days I will be going offline until June. This time away will give me the final month of my pregnancy and the first 1.5 months of motherhood distraction free. I am excited to get connected to what is in and around my physical space and be present with this incredible transition. I have taken 4 days off from social media, even a month but I have never taken almost 3 months away.
Technology has become incredibly integrated in my life and I am feeling equally curious and excited about what life will be like without it for a while. I am ready to focus my attention to my studentship and the work that I am creating, connecting to my body, our baby, Anthony, and our community. It is time to pull the energy inward. Close off the distractions of social media to drop deeper and create new space to listen to these natural rhythms within me. In the meantime, as all of our lives continue to unfold, I very much look forward to returning to stories both shared and witnessed.
The Universe continues to provide signs that it is time. Time to savor every intimate moment with my child during her descent out of the womb. As these are the last few days of witnessing my beautiful belly grow and the last few weeks of feeling and watching the movements underneath my skin I am left in a state of amazement and wonder. I turn to these final moments to create a sacred story of what is now, what is present.